Bana ‘seni seviyorum’ demi\u015fti. \u015eimdi ne oldu da k\u0131z arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor. <\/p>\n
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\u015eevval:Gitmesen olmaz m\u0131? <\/p>\n
Ben:Gitmem laz\u0131m \u00e7ok \u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:\u00c7ok mu uza\u011fa gidiceksin? <\/p>\n
Ben:\u0130zmir’e gidece\u011fiz. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:gelirsin dimi? <\/p>\n
Ben: tabikide gelirim. Sende gel<\/p>\n
\u015eevval:Bora? <\/p>\n
Bora: Efendim? <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:Sen bi\u015fi demiyecek misin? <\/p>\n
Bora:Ne dememi bekliyorsun? Yolun a\u00e7\u0131k olsun Sude. <\/p>\n
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3 ay aras\u0131nda olanlara ne olmu\u015ftu. Bora’ya ne olmu\u015ftu!? <\/p>\n
Ben:Seninde<\/p>\n
\u015eevval:Bora \u0130Y\u0130 misin sen ya ne dedi\u011finin fark\u0131nda m\u0131s\u0131n? Neyse Sude ne zaman gidiceksin? <\/p>\n
Ben: bu ders annemler gelicekmi\u015f. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval: gel son kez konu\u015fal\u0131m biraz<\/p>\n
5 dakika konu\u015ftuk sonra zil \u00e7ald\u0131. Derstedydik kap\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131 ve i\u00e7eri annem ile m\u00fcd\u00fcr yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 girdi. Masama odaklam\u0131\u015ftum hi\u00e7bir yere bakm\u0131yorum g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bile k\u0131rpm\u0131yordum. <\/p>\n
M\u00fcd\u00fcr yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 Seval han\u0131m: Sude <\/p>\n
Ben:… <\/p>\n
Seval han\u0131m: hadi can\u0131m vedala\u015f herkesle e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 topla velin geldi. <\/p>\n
Ben \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m\u0131 bile \u00e7\u0131karmadan e\u015fyalar\u0131 toplad\u0131m. \u00c7antam\u0131 masam\u0131n \u00fczerinde b\u0131rak\u0131p g\u00f6lgeye bakt\u0131m g\u00f6zleri dolu bir \u015fekilde bana bak\u0131yordu. H\u0131zl\u0131 bir \u015fekilde g\u00f6lgenin yan\u0131na gidip s\u0131k\u0131ca sar\u0131ld\u0131m okadar s\u0131k\u0131yordumki kollar\u0131m a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 oda ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde s\u0131k\u0131yordu. <\/p>\n
Ben:Bak s\u0131ks\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fece\u011fiz. Beni aramay\u0131 unutursan hemen yan\u0131na gelirim d\u00f6verim seni, duydun mu? <\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerimden bir ya\u015f s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:E\u011fer geliceksen seni aramam ki<\/p>\n
Dedi h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rarak, kollar\u0131ndan tutarak \u00f6n\u00fcmde dikle\u015ftirdim akan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndan zorla g\u00fclerek, <\/p>\n
Ben: sak\u0131n \u00f6yle bir hata yapay\u0131m deme ha. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval: dayanamam ki zaten arar\u0131m dakikada bir. <\/p>\n
Ben:g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fcz. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015felim <\/p>\n
Dedi a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n kenar\u0131 k\u0131vr\u0131ld\u0131 bu durumda bile g\u00fcld\u00fcre biliyordu beni<\/p>\n
Di\u011fer arkada\u015flar\u0131mla ve \u00f6\u011fretmenime vedala\u015ft\u0131m kap\u0131ya y\u00f6nelicekken t\u00fcm s\u0131n\u0131f birden “A\u015eA\u011eIYA GELMEK \u0130ST\u0130YORUZ” diye tezehurah yapmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m birden sevin\u00e7 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcm. <\/p>\n
Seval han\u0131m: Tamam ozaman sessiz bir \u015fekilde inin a\u015fa\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n
Dedi. Herkes inmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indik Bora s\u0131n\u0131fta de\u011fildi neredeydi. Tekrardan vedala\u015f\u0131p arabaya binmeye y\u00f6neldim okula son kez bakmak i\u00e7in arkam\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p, nefes ald\u0131m g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Bora camdan bak\u0131yordu bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce cam\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Geri arabaya d\u00f6n\u00fcp arabaya bindim. <\/p>\n
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… 2 G\u00dcN SONRA… <\/p>\n
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Tamamen yeni evimize ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131k. Evimiz dublex idi K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 mavi renkte yukar\u0131 kat benim odamd\u0131. \u00d6yle istedim ailem yeni hayat\u0131ma ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in kabul edip beni k\u0131rmad\u0131. \u00dcst katta birtek benim odam ve ufak bir birle\u015fik banyo ve lavabo vard\u0131. \u00c7ok ho\u015fuma gitmi\u015fti. Odama yeni e\u015fyalar alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Yata\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ift ki\u015filik siyah ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131yd\u0131 \u00f6zel yapt\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7 bir yerde siyah renk bulamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Hatta odada ki t\u00fcm mobilyalar \u00f6zeldi. Gri bir 3 kapakl\u0131 gardolap vard\u0131. Bir taraf\u0131 raf bir taraf\u0131 ask\u0131l\u0131k yeri alt taraf\u0131nda da \u00e7ekmece vard\u0131. Komidinim de gri tenkti 2 \u00e7ekmecesi vard\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcnde siyah bir gece lambas\u0131 vard\u0131. Yatak \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fc gri renk ald\u0131m her \u015feyim gri ve siyah renkti \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc en sevdi\u011fim en uyan renklerden biri siyah ve griydi benim i\u00e7in. <\/p>\n
Sabah yeni okul formam\u0131 giyip, kahvalt\u0131 i\u00e7in a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indim annemi bir yana\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6pt\u00fcm masaya gidip a\u011fz\u0131ma yuvarlak \u015fekilde do\u011franm\u0131\u015f salatal\u0131\u011f\u0131 koydum. <\/p>\n
Ben: G\u00fcnayd\u0131n Annee <\/p>\n
Annem:Hay\u0131rd\u0131r niye bukadar ne\u015felisin <\/p>\n
Ben:A\u011fl\u0131yay\u0131m m\u0131 anne <\/p>\n
Annem:A\u00e7\u0131kcas\u0131 a\u011flaman\u0131n bekliyordum b\u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m<\/p>\n
Ben:Anne d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sonu de\u011fildi ya hem \u015eevval’e g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fccemde o y\u00fczden s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yook. <\/p>\n
Dedim. Kahvalt\u0131 yapt\u0131m ayakkab\u0131m\u0131 giyip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek gitmek istedim hem etraf\u0131 tan\u0131rd\u0131m hemde hava g\u00fczeldi. G\u00f6lge ile mesajla\u015f\u0131yordum. <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:Ee nas\u0131l gidiyo<\/p>\n
Ben:\u0130dare eder i\u015fte \u015fuanda yeni okuluma gidiyorum<\/p>\n
\u015eevval: off ya o okulda senle olmak vard\u0131. <\/p>\n
Ben: yani benim i\u00e7in de\u011filde okul i\u00e7in \u00f6ylemi? <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:Yok ya anlad\u0131n sen <\/p>\n
Ben:Anlad\u0131m tabikide <\/p>\n
\u015eevval:Neyse ben okula geldim sonra konu\u015furuz bye bye. <\/p>\n
Ben:bye bye<\/p>\n
Telefonun ekran\u0131n\u0131 kapat\u0131p \u00f6n\u00fcme bakt\u0131m. Arkamdan ko\u015fma sesi geliyordu. Arkam\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ne g\u00f6reyim \u00fc\u00e7 tane k\u00f6pek ko\u015fuyordu <\/p>\n
Hemen ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m \u00f6n\u00fcmde bir vard\u0131 onun \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7tim arkama bak\u0131cak \u015fekilde ceketinin yanlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 bir \u015fekilde tuttum ve g\u00f6zlerimi s\u0131m s\u0131k\u0131 kapat\u0131p durdum. K\u00f6pekler ge\u00e7ti burnuma ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fccek \u00e7ok mayho\u015f bir koku geldi. <\/p>\n
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